Crumpling to Reclaiming

I often used to think I wanted to be heard. But it's not just my voice that needed and craved validation. My nervous system needed to feel safe.

You go from spanked to slapped to hit. You think everything you say and do is wrong. You constantly question whatever your head tells you and forget about listening to your body.

When you're yelled at for seemingly stupid shit and told "you're lazy" to "you're a terrible mom."

You start to question yourself.

That's the thing about feeling safe. It's not just your nervous system that craves safety, it's your soul.

Your soul is already the most authentic part about you.

But as you experience a world of pain and others telling you who you are. You push down your intuition,

"No that can't be right, because they don't agree with it."

You crumple parts of yourself and trash it.

This is called your shadow.

One day you realize the parts of you that you crumpled up are beautiful.

You being angry that someone made fun of you...valid- uncrumpled.

You dancing around your room for a break and because you're happy...valid- uncrumpled.

You taking a nap after 7 hours of being told what to do, how to do it, around a lot of people...valid-uncrumpled.

You eating slow because the texture of peas makes you want to vomit ...valid-uncrumpled.

You asking a lot of questions and being called annoying, but you're just a creative and curious mind...valid-uncrumpled.

You being told you're too sensitive and a cry baby for feeling hurt when someone makes fun of you...valid-uncrumpled.

Shadow work is just that. Subconscious deprogramming.

Taking that crumpled piece of paper out of the trash and look at it, feel it, embody it, and fully express it.

It's where your gifts are, your ancestral wisdom, skills, and talents are expressed.

Being obedient was just being blind to the true perception of who you are.

The more you accept and dance with your shadows, the more calm your nervous system feels.

This is energetic alignment, wholeness, and sovereignty.

What part of you are you still crumpling that's ready to be expressed?